Happy November! 2017 has been a strange year that seems barely to have started for me and collectively we’ve been stumbling from outrage to outrage until the year has almost gone.
Personally, I came into this Halloween wanting to step into more social engagement and external work for the greater good. I wanted to manifest balance of my rather scattered energy that would allow me to be more focused on others than myself. But over the last week I’ve been inundated with messages that for right now I need to do internal work of recentring, letting go and shining light into dark corners in order to engage more effectively.
The tarot spread I did for the new year on Samhain was unequivocal. I even laughed out loud when I turned over The Hanged Man; it couldn’t be much clearer that I need to get comfortable doing deep work that won’t feel like forward progress to me. The Hanged Man means really sinking into things we tend to squirm away from and learning to be content there. The Two of Wands says to me that I frequently feel like I need to make a decision about what I want to devote my energy to, but both of my options will always be there. There will always be work to do in the world and there will always be work to do on myself; the journey outward and the journey inward each have their season.
Practically speaking, all of this makes perfect sense as I’m anticipating a few months of big changes ending a year of big changes and I think the work of November is to see what I can let go of in order to make room, pausing the forward progress to reflect, centre myself and set things down that are no longer serving me. However, I do think the choice between social justice work and inner work is a false dichotomy; why can’t I do both at the same time? What if the things I let go of come from the less compassionate, more consumerist aspects of my personality as shaped by culture? In No is Not Enough, author Naomi Klein put it as killing her ‘inner Trump’. So in this period of reflection, what can I let go of within myself that’s Trumpish?
- Where am I egotistical and competitive in my life instead of empathetic and collaborative?
- In what areas am I waiting for someone external to come along and ‘fix’ things?
- Where do I judge people based on external features?
- What am I bad at letting go?
- Where am I not listening to the experiences of others?
- Can I let go of needing external validation for my decisions and actions? (Oh my god can this please happen?!)
So, this is what’s arising in November for me. I hope you are taking good care of yourself and listening to what’s coming up for you. Have a wonderful week!